Lately I have been challenged at the way that I pray, talk about, and think about God. I was laid off from my job over a year ago. Then we had our first child, Nathan. The past year we have been constantly leaning on God and trusting that he will provide for our family. While I feel as though Daniel and I are doing what God wants from us daily, I have spent alot of my prayer time asking God about our future. What should I be doing? Should I be working? Do you have a job for me God?
Over the past week I have been fasting and on spring break. And the only revelation that I have had is that I deserve nothing. That I can beg God to provide for my family, that I can ask God for a job. That I can ask God for anything. But I deserve nothing. And every answer, every miracle, everytime that he provides it is by his choice and it is a gift. When he doesn't answer me, he is still God. When someone isn't healed, he is still God. When we don't have enough, he is still God.
The I found this video, it is a story that will inspire you touch you. And after watching it, I was reminded that our disappointments over the last year were the best things that happened to us. I am a better mother, wife, and follower of Jesus becuase of my circumstances changing. I cling to Jesus more tightly than I would when I could rely on myself. And I love Jesus more deeply becuase he has been with me in dark, sad, and uncertain times.
Watch this with a box of Kleenex near by.
The Story of Zac Smith from NewSpring Media on Vimeo.
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